Dear Future Girlfriend,

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I knew it. I knew it was too good to be true. This is yet another tally I can add to the board of how many times I thought I finally found you. We had our history, and I missed my chance to be with her. I thought this second chance meant that she was you. The one I’ve been waiting for. Yet again, I was wrong.
I feel so close to giving up. I keep trying to find you, but this keeps happening. I’m never good enough. It’s always, “You’re so sweet, but…”, “I can only see you as a friend…sorry…”, “I’m not interested in a relationship right now.” Hell, when I finally DO think I’ve finally found you, the girl proves me wrong and breaks me. Again. Like always.
Please, please show up soon…you don’t have to come into my life and automatically start flirting with me or anything. Just you coming into my life as a friend or an acquaintance would suffice. As long as you come into my life and make me thing “Wow…I think she’s different. Seriously different this time.” I just want you to come into my life already. I know everyone says I’m too young to be caring about this, but I think differently. If you show me that you really are different, then you wouldn’t have to ever worry about looking for love again. I’ll be loyal, I’ll be caring, I’ll be loving, I’ll try my absolute hardest to be perfect for you.
Other than just wanting to love you, there’s so many couple-y kind of stuff that I’ve always wanted to do with you. I’ve only held hands with a girl in a romantic kind of way once, and that whole fiasco was short-lived. I want us to be able to hold hands, feeling you grip onto me. I’m a kind of guy that values physical interaction as much as verbal. I am capable of telling you how much I love you, but in some (or most) moments, I won’t be able to put my feelings into words, or perhaps, maybe your beauty is just messing with my mind too much to construct a coherent sentence. In those moments, I’d just want to use physical means to explain how much I care about you. So things like holding hands, hugging, holding you in my arms, cuddling, caressing your cheek, tucking your hair behind your ear, things like that.
When we both finally have the freedom to be on our own, I’d like for us to explore the city. Go to all the little Turtle bay  we’ve never visited. Assuming I find you in manipal, we could explore Udupi. Me, living in a Shirva a 1 hours away from the Manipal, I don’t exactly have a lot of time or allowance to explore that side of the city. We could visit random restaurants and eat anything we wanted (because food is always relevant, and always a great way to bond with someone special!) Even though I’m a kind a club person, we could go to them if you want, hit up a few bars, just drink a little bit, have some fun!
Of course, I’d actually prefer to stay indoors though. Yeah, call me boring, but a majority of the time, I’d just like to stay with you and watch some TV or movies. I hope you enjoy that, because I think we could have a lot of fun with this! We could spoon on the couch (I’d prefer to be the big spoon, but I’m completely fine with switching) and take turns watching classic Disney films and incredibly cheesy action movies. After we have our share of movie magic, we could just settle in, just bask in the presence of each other. with our fingers interlocking, I’d be in paradise.

Please come into my life soon. I’ll try my hardest to live up to your expectations! Just promise you’ll love me back, and you’ll be yourself. That’s all I ask of you. Just do those two things, and I’ll love you with all of my heart, which I assure you, will be a lot!

Slowly becoming impatient,
Me